Wednesday, March 9, 2011

waiting, and more waiting..

Every time, I have an urge to blog i seem to get a writers block. When I do have an awesome title with an actual objective words to follow. I don't get to share it.  Its been 3 months into the new year.  Things aren't as mundane lately as it usually would.  In fact, its that time of the year when im awaiting to get into a program again. I receive a letter to go into an orientation for Program A:, I went, found out my rank in that list.  Im not going to lie, I'm so use to being a pessimist because of being rejected the last few times. I don't feel anything for it.  I don't want to get my hopes up. Although, alot of things could happen as the director says, theres just that innate feeling that always gets me. A cross between a failure and angered feeling.  But have faith because im not going to give up!  Program B is still in the works, but who's to say i am still out of the running for both. I'm keeping faith., and lord jesus help me.

Oh,its Ash Wednesday all week I've been thinking of things to give up or do better in.   I know people are giving up things that they have an obsession for.  I try to have a list that will better help me through this season.  Like what the priest said, if he can do it for 40 days, why can't we? I will be conscious of this thought until its easter.

Random thought: 

met a former nfl player, eye candy seems to be having an effect towards me..*grins*

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